And I do too.
I do apologize for not posting more often of late.
Ok, I know everyone is tired of hearing this, [not as tired as I am of thinking about it] but I just can't shake the sadness that seems to envelope my very being since Maxie died.
She was "just a dog" to everyone else. Maxie was my little buddy. We where like peas and carrots, little Fuzzy Britches and me.
Sometimes I still catch what I think is a glimpse of her little grey body bouncing around in the corner of my eye.
Or I think I hear her whine for that cotton pickin' ball, she couldn't live without!
And I'll catch myself starting to call her to get a "cookie".
But ... she's ... not ... there. And never will be again. And the silent tears stain my cheeks for the 10,000th time.
"Maybe I can will her back to me again," I muse. Or perhaps a clone?
Nahhhh, it's only wishful thinking.
Alas, I haven't that gift.
To compound the agony of eternal separation from my beloved best friend, our last "vacation" to Florida left me drained, miserable, forlorn, beaten. My once favorite sister-in-law, that I thought really cared for me, went out of her way to make me feel small. It was so awful I thought she was channeling her evil step-mother! Dang!
Now, I can't get into writing or commenting much anymore.
After a heart wrenching decision I've decided that after 6+ years of pouring my heart out to a network of virtual strangers who have become closer than family, I want to "retire".
This is possibly my blog's Swan Song.
Or I may be a total diva and return if there's enough clamoring. *lol*
Rather than just disappear, and since it fits into my always present desire to always leave things neatly finished, I thought I'd share that it's been a real pleasure to meet all of you. Some fellow bloggers have disappeared mysteriously. Others we've parted ways amicably. But most of you have become real true blue friends. I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for letting me into your hearts, homes, and thoughts. I will still continue to pray for you all, as I also continue to pray for this once great Nation to turn back to our Judeo-Christian principles.
Please do e-mail or tweet or call if so desired. I'll still be on the 'net.
And if you see me on the road, be sure to smile and wave.
God bless and stay well out there.